All Smiles ...Cheese

I am in a good mood today. Damn, I am in a GREAT Fucking mood today. I feel like I have that goofy good sex smirk on my face. Can you tell? Do you want to know why?

Well I didn’t get any good sex exactly...I was more like good mind sex. I had my mind blown last night. And let me tell you, our conversation got so deep, so passionate, so everything that I have been missing for so damn long that having a physical orgasm would have only come second to this emotional orgasm I experienced.

If you are wondering if this was with someone other than my SO, the answer is yes.

(...V...)

Confessions (Part V): Showtime!

Good day Honey bunches of oats!
So r u ready for more of Sasha's confessions? Lets do it!

Its now the day of the big show & I'm extremely nervous! I cut bck on talkin to Hazel G big time afta that intense moment in my car & learning that he not only has a girlfriend but a fiance!
In fact I told him I had to stop talkin to him b/c it wasn't fair to his fiance or myself. Even though he insisted that the relationship was real bad between the 2 & that the only reason he stayed w/her was for the sake of his child, it still wasn't right. And excuses r excuses in Sasha's world. SO for a few days he texted & called me but I would simply ignore them, hard as it was.
But I eventually broke my silent treatment & explained y I was avoiding him. He told me he got engaged several yrs ago when he was younger but they never made any official wedding plans b/c the relationship grew bad...they constantly had problems, and he was having 2nd thoughts about it.
Ever since we stopped talking, he tells me he hasn't been able to sleep, think or work clearly ...he couldn't even focus in the studio w/ his production company since I cut him off. He said that he must see me after the show at least 1 last time to discuss things in person. I agreed...not realizing that this last encounter would be the most memorable experience between us as you'll later discover...




Showtime:
So its almost time to hit the stage & I am nervous as hell but excited at the same time! It's stormin real bad outside & everyone frm the paparazzi, camera crews, fans, artists, and performers r all going crazy in an attempt to get their shine on @ the red carpet.
SO it was almost time for my 1st number & I happen to see Hazel G & his fiance sittin out in the audience.
"Oh God, how can I perform when he and his girlfriend r sitting rt out front!" I thought.
I feel sick to my stomach now. But too late...the curtains going up, lights flashing, music has cued...time to forget about everything else & work my magic on stage. After all, every true performer knows that no matter what...the show must go on.
SO I hit the stage for my 1st scene and rocked it! I then hurry back to change in preparation for my next scene when I noticed Hazel G is now no where in the audience. I see his girl but he's disappeared...hmmm "oh well" I thought. We continue on with the show....

Meanwhile my biggest scene of the show is coming up next, so I take my position backstage....still no sign of Hazel G. As the music cued, me and the other dancers lit up the stage, I mean truly killed it! I had 1 solo spot which I freaked!
I dint think about anything else...it was just me and the music. Ms. fiance stared at me intently as I moved but she was still sitting solo. Meanwhile the crowd went wild as I danced my solo! It was a truly gratifying moment!


After everything was over, I felt so much better! I dnt know what happened to Hazel G but at that point, I didnt care! Hell I had gone thru enough unnecessary emotional roller coasters with this dude. It was time to suit up for the after party! Haaayyyyyy!
So I change clothes along with a few other girls & we hit the afta party. When I entered the club rm, there were so many producers, artists, and directors approaching me asking for my contact number so that we can collaborate on future projects. I was so thankful for such an opportunity.
As I'm talking to 1 of the producers, I notice Hazel G enter the party still solo.
He glances over at me, sees me talking to this guy
&walks away. Hmmm...guess he has to keep a low profile 4 the public. I can dig it. Whatever.
So after dancing to a few songs & minglin a bit more, I feel my phone vibrate. Its Hazel G.
He tells me he snuck into the WESTIN hotel across the street & used the bathroom just to sneak on his phone and call me. (He a trip) So I discreetly exited the rm so I can hit Hazel G bck in private after trying my damnest to play it off to get rid of the people who were on my bck wanting me 2 stay. It was like a James Bond Double 0-7 Mission Impossible task!
But finally I exited the party and proceeded to check into my hotel rm for the night.
As soon as I reach the rm, my phone rattles again...Hazel G.

"You kno u was looking real sexy out there tonight" the msg read
"Thanks. Didn't know u saw me..U disappeared @ 1 point" I typed bck.
"Yea I had to get up. U was gettin me so hard @ 1 point while I was sittin next to shorty. I didn't feel like arguing w/her so I got up to go get myself together "
"Plus I had to check on sum things bckstage" he wrote. "But whatchu bout 2 do now?"
"Check in my rm" I reply..
" O yea...So whatchu gon do in that rm?" he replies.
"What would u like for me 2 do in this rm?"I hit bck.
"Funny u should ask...Im bout 2 show you..." he states.
And then I heard the knock @ my door....

Back to School...UGH..is it really this hard??

OKAY HONEY, Sorry I been away..I had a BIRTHDAY this week So I was TOTALLY focused on Having a GREAT TIME!! (which I did the whole weekend)...

So now that I'm back.....Let's chat!

I have recently decided that I wanna go back to school right.,,so Okay Honey..I have filled out the app, and spoke with the admissions people..Now I gotta fill out the Fafsa form (financial aid for those who ain't know)....Did that.....then I got "RANDOMLY" selected to have my income verified (Bullshit)..SO I had to fax over ALLLLLLL my Income tax return papers from last year..Then I had to refax something cause it didn't go through.....I mean DAMN..How much stuff do you need!!!

SO after I finally got approved for Financial Aid, and I got my award letter....THEN I had to fill out 5 more forms online..and take a Financial Aid Loan test..in order to get approved..I have neva heard of such...IS this for REAL????....I was like GEEEEEEZZZZ...Has classes already started and is this my first assignment..Am I Gonna get a grade???

Okay Honey..so I filled everything out...after this whole 4 day process was over (which included my birthday) I got my Acceptance email into the school..YES I am just getting my acceptance into the school...SO I'm ready to get my class schedule and get started...NOT!!!!!!!!!! Now, I have to take placement tests for English and Math...WHAT THE HELL??? I took all this before in school..this is not my first time in college....can you please tell me why I have to do this crap again?

I'm just like WHAT DOES iT Take Nowadays to get into college?..Does the class start before you get a schedule cause I felt like I was already in class tryna complete my first assignments...Damn!!

So I got my transcripts faxed over to show I have been in school before..already taken this stuff...Now I'm just waiting to see if I still need to take some placement tests...Let's hope I don't cause me and MATH just don't work well together....(unless I'm counting my dollars...HOLLA....lol) Well wish me luck.....YAY!!

TTFN

Sorry for the Hiatus. I have been at a pity party for myself lately. I’m sooo over it now so don’t worry.

Lately my life has been very monotonous. Just plain boring. It has come to the point where I am literally craving some drama. Something! I mean yeah, I have the normal spats with my Significant Other (SO), but after 5 years we discuss/argue about the same ‘ole Shit. Who pays what. How much the other spends. What you don’t do at the house. Your mommas attitude. Why our son is soo spoiled. Who ate all of the left overs, drank the last of the half of bottle of wine that I was planning to down after work, and smoked all the Green Good (I mean u couldn’t even leave me a lil roach?). Damn.

So yeah, small arguments, big arguments; we have had them all and they don’t change a bit. I sometimes feel that my SO purposefully picks these fights with me. I’m at the point where I sometimes completely ignore SO’s spiteful comments. It’s at those times where I’m thinking ‘What is the Fucking point?’

I’m slowly realizing that there is none. I’m starting to drift away. I wonder if SO notices. I wonder if SO secretly feels the same way. I wonder if I do drift, just a little, will I be able to turn back. Will my SO still be there?

So many questions. Very few answers. But one thing is for sure. This ship is about to set sail.

(…V…)

Sasha's Confessions...Cont'd

Hey Honey Bunches!

I know its been a bit since I last commented on my secret love life but haven't been feeling too well lately. But without further ado, here's the rest of Sasha's Confessions...

...So it turns out the headlights was just from a car who made a wrong turn....they simply popped a U-Turn and headed in the opposite direction. Whew! That was close!
But that didn't stop Hazel G...oh no! Homeboy was not finished with me just yet!
All I can remember next is being flipped on my back, pants now completely off and seeing Hazel G's face buried completely between my legs. Now normally I don't even expect to get my kitty licked b/c lets just say...well I've had bad/painful experiences in that department. But if I knew it could feel like this, Lord knows I woulda took auditions to get it done rt! lol
I mean this man did things with his tongue and licked areas on my body I swear may be outlawed in sum countries! He had no fear whatsoever!
His thick warm tongue massaged my entire pearl, secondary lips and even ventured on down bck to the nether regions...wow! (forgive me if this is too graphic...I like my readers to have a visual perception)
OMG! He was really turning me out! I grew so wet & dizzy frm all of the activity that I didn't even notice when he slid rt bck inside me. All I can say after that was...if people happened to walk by, they got an eyefull, cuz my truck was doing the rock away big time!
Good thing my windows were tinted and fogged, but the way homeboy was scooping me up and twisting my lil ass body (Im very petite for my age), I am sure someone caught a glimpse of my foot hitting the window or a shot of his hands smacking up against the glass here & there! I mean we were REALLY gettin it IN! But something told me to stop. Yall know what it is. That harsh reality set in from a guilty conscience and I suddenly JUMPED UP!

I know what you're thinkin:
Y stop afta going that far? Maybe you're rt, but thats how crazy my mind was while being in the heat of the moment. I can still refrain from continuing even afta Ive gone a certain level. Not to mention that a whole hour had passed in the midst of our activities & I did have to get home before it was too late. So I stopped him grabbed our clothes and kissed him goodnight. Before I pulled off he stops my car, motioning for me to roll dwn my window. And then he said it. The words I feared would come out:
" I want you to have a safe trip home, be sure to call me. Have a great night and ....and...I Love You"
I was actually speechless...I pulled off afraid to look into those mesmerizing eyes...




Okay guys, remember in my earlier post when Hazel G and I were spotted by our director that 1st night we met? Well Ms. Boss Lady never mentioned the encounter but she did happen to throw a lil salt in the game as a msg for me to bck away. At least that's how I took it. See boss lady ended up using me as 1 of the choreographers to teach the other dancers routine for 1 of our big scenes of the show! So she took me under her wing (sorta speak) & arranged for me to stay the entire weekend instead of driving bck home afta rehearsal. She wanted me to teach as many girls as possible including doing 1 on 1 workshops...basically she had me doing HER job b/c she was HIRED as the official choreographer of the show but waited till the LAST MINUTE to create material. Now she has me filling this position!
Anyway 1 day before rehearsal, Boss Lady & I met for lunch. She starts gossiping about all of the different artists and certain models & dancers who were groupies & went on & on about how she doesn't trust them around her man, etc. I mean she really was putting people business out there like it was nothing! The sad part about it is these people looked up to Boss Lady and confided in her. She was ur typical fake PLASTIC.
Then the convo centered on Hazel G. No one bought his name up but her!
She tells me he's engaged and about to be married soon so he isn't thinkin bout no other female..."He knows better" as she states.
Now I knew he had a girl but I didn't kno he had a fiance! Engaged!
With this piece of knowledge I sent Hazel G a text msg confronting him and let him know that I could no longer talk to him EVEN AS A FRIEND! I was literally hurt. I knew we couldn't be together but I guess somewhere dwn the line feelings started to grow on my end as well. Oh well I'll just have to erase him frm memory..shut him out completely...deny his existence
(I can be cold when I cut sum1 off)
Hazel G kept calling and texting all during dance rehearsal but I ignored him. He wanted to talk to me bt I wnt having it!
I was furious!
In my mind, that was the end of me and Hazel G....

Customer Service Part II

Oh yea I forgot to tell yall bout another cust. service situation I experienced that same day..Me being the customer this time. Ok I promise to keep it short...yall know I like to write a lot but this will be brief.
Okay SO Im trying to pay my Comcast bill...for those who have had this service, yall know how ghetto and unprofessional they service reps be.
SO my bill is like sky rocket high cuz I haven't paid on it in a min. Not gon tell yall how much it was but it was over $400. (yea I kno Im terrible but shit times be rough at times!)
So the lady pulls up my account after 30 min of searching She sees the balance and says..."OOOH WOW, yea you need to pay on this ASAP!"
First off...that was way unprofessional to comment on a customer's high balance. You dont know what the fuk they may be going thru and HELLO, thats why Im calling your fat ass now...to make a payment.
I know she was fat cuz the bitch just had one of those fat sounding voices...
(Yall know how people just sound fat? Like they got 2 cheeseburgers stuffed in dey cheeks but trying to talk at the same time. And they be breathing all hard like dey belly jiggle when they laugh & talk? Yea she had 1 of those voices...)
(Betcha this lady got a fat sounding voice 2)

Anyway so I inform her I wanted to pay the bill online but Im trying to access my account online and need my passcode reset....this bitch gon cut me off and say,
"WELL....you cant be online now b/c your internet service is disconnected!"
Ummm excuse me "BITCH DID I SAY I WAS ON THE COMPUTER AT HOME?!!!" I was actually in another area using my laptop BUT why r u all in my business ANYWAY when all I asked your ass to do was to access my account so that I can pay my bill!
Then she starts small talking (to stall while she process my info) saying how she left her glasses at home so she cant see a thing on the computer which is y it was taking like 30 min just for her to find my account. She goes on & on about how her day is crazy, she hasn't eaten lunch YET and how her eyes hurt from straining to see...blah blah blah.
Bitch I dnt care! And you dont need to be working if you cnt see shit! Waistin peoples time cuz your azz blind!
Damn this bitch was just waaaaaay unprofessional!
When she said "WELLL you cant BE online...", I shoulda said...WELLL....BITCH you cant BE hungry cuz it sound like you ass has already eaten lunch, brunch, dinner and mad snacks to munch...But see I wouldve been wrong for that...
Just goes to show you cnt judge people by what you think you know!
And they call it Customer Service? HA!
After experiencing this chick I didnt feel bad at all for how I treated that last dude in my earlier post...It is what it is...

Catch ya l8tr honey bunches!

Maaaaannne F*ck Customer Service!

The title says it all!
This is exactly how I felt yesterday!

Hey honies!
So with all the chaos of the labor day weekend I didn't have time to post my irritating experiences from the other day. But lets talk about Customer Service for a min.
Ok granted...I know if your role within your job requires any kind of customer service skills, then you have to put up with the most dumbest and aggravating shit at times according to the boss. BUT...this shit has to be to a certain degree now! I mean its not but so much our azz should have to take before we continue to be subjected to a level of disrespect!
Check this out:
So I'm stuck at work (on a SATURDAY at that) bored as hell cuz ain't nothing going on, NO CUSTOMERS, NO CALLS, NO EMAILS, nada!
So my 1st call that happens to come in as Im ready to leave for the day (know Im frustrated now) comes from this prick ass redneck sounding nucca that got on the phone already sounding irritated. He's looking for a Mercedes Benz that we have in stock, but didnt say that right off the back. All this nucca said when the call was transferred was "Yea the CLS" Thats it! He said that shit so fast that I didn't even know what the hell he was talking about! Here's a break down of the convo:

ME: "Good afternoon, Thank you for calling_____, how may I help you?"
Prick ASS: " Yea CLS" (so fast!)
ME: "I'm sorry are you looking for a particular vehicle sir?"
Prick ASS: "Yea I said CLS"
(Dude is talking so fast I thought the nigga said "yea, Celeste") like he looking for his girl or a chick name Celest, or something...So I simply ask for the year of the particular vehicle he's looking for to make sure I heard him right and so we on the same page and thats when I musta pissed him off for whateva reason. Guess dude had his ass in his shoulders that day and was already in a shitty mood but little did he know so was I that day! Shit bout to go down!

ME: "Ok, I'll be more than happy to check on the availability of the vehicle you're interested in, do you know the year of this particular model?"
Prick ASS: " The year? I mean what, you don't know your inventory? You only have 1 in stock"
(Breathe Sasha... Breathe...'Wusah'....Mane that shit aint working sorry lol)
I'm thinking:
Hold up bruh. First off how the fuk you gon tell me what we have in OUR inventory when
#1 we get vehicles that come and go on a day by day basis.
#2. Nicca you don't work here! How you know what we got?!
For all you know that vehicle could have been sold or you may have saw an older model online that is no longer available (which happens a lot at my job) You prick ass Punk bitch!
#3. We actually had 3 Mercedes Benzs that came in ...I had already found the one he was looking at too but homeboy pissed me off so I played dumb like I still didn't know just to see if dude would give me the year of the car.
Well he was not leaving w/out a fight...check out the rest...

ME: "Actually sir we have 3 models that came in that matches that particular make. Also our inventory changes daily so there is always a possibility that there may be more than 1 model of the same make listed online. That's why I asked for the year you are referring to just to verify we are speaking of the same vehicle. So again, do you happen to know the year of the vehicle please?"
Prick ASS: "Well like I said you only have 1"
ME: (nothing)B/c at this point I'm thinking, did this dude not hear a single damn word of what I just said! Damn!
Mane fuck customer service at this point. I am in a bad mood...I'm stuck at work on a Sat, bored as hell, tired, hungry and my hormones r out of whack rt now! Dude is on the verge of getting cussed out and I'm the only 1 working today 2 so plain and simple...I just don't give a fuk rt now!



ME: "Sir as I mentioned before our inventory changes daily. We re-"
Prick ASS: "But You only have 1"
NO THIS NUCCA DIDN'T JUST CUT ME OFF!
"You only have 1, you only have 1..." That's all he keep saying....just shut the fuk up!!
ME: "No we actually dnt have 1, we have 3 in stock. Which is why I asked for the particular year you were referring to for verification purposes...." I was lying but like I said I just didnt care anymore.
Prick ASS: " Ok fine, Thank You."
THEN HE didn't hang up so I'm guessing he was waiting for me to respond back but Shit I'm done wit ya ass. I dnt have shit else to say to you! So what do I do?.....
I hang up in his damn face.
I mean I'm thinking: What the fuk r you still on the phone for? Our conversation is done!
I know I was wrong for that but honie at that point.,I just didn't give a damn!
Fuck cust. service! Shit we deserve respect too! It aint but so much we can take on a daily basis!
LAAAAAAAAWWWED...See its a reason people call 1st. They talk all that shit on the phone cuz dude know that mess wouldn't fly if he bought his ass in for an appointment! He wouldn't be so big and bad then. "You only have 1..."yea well nucca how bout I only have time for ABOUT 1 more phone call to take until my shift ends and I refuse to spend it on yo dumb ass...
CLICK!
sorry yall... Sasha had to vent for a sec...I'm good now though!

That customer couldve kissed my azz tho yall, seriously!